Audiobook Review – Freshwater by Akwaeke Emezi, Narrated by Author (3.5/5 stars)
Reading Level: Adult
Genre: Magical Realism/Literary Fiction
Length: 6 hours and 42 minutes
Publisher: HighBridge
Release Date: February 13, 2018
ASIN: B079LFRRCD
Stand Alone or Series: Stand Alone
Source: Borrowed on Audiobook from Library
Rating: 3.5/5 stars
“Freshwater explores the surreal experience of having a fractured self. It centers around a young Nigerian woman, Ada, who develops separate selves within her as a result of being born “with one foot on the other side”. Unsettling, heart-wrenching, dark, and powerful, Freshwater is a sharp evocation of a rare way of experiencing the world, one that illuminates how we all construct our identities.
Ada begins her life in the south of Nigeria as a troubled baby and a source of deep concern to her family. Her parents, Saul and Saachi, successfully prayed her into existence, but as she grows into a volatile and splintered child, it becomes clear that something went terribly awry. When Ada comes of age and moves to America for college, the group of selves within her grows in power and agency.
A traumatic assault leads to a crystallization of her alternate selves: Asụghara and Saint Vincent. As Ada fades into the background of her own mind and these selves – now protective, now hedonistic – move into control, Ada’s life spirals in a dark and dangerous direction.”
Series Info/Source: This is a stand alone book. I borrowed a copy of this on audiobook from the library.
Thoughts: I listened to this book on audiobook and the narration was well done. This book was more on the poetic-literary side and the story feels very ambiguous at times. It was well done but has way more violence and sex than I was expecting. At times it feels like the whole story is revolving around Ada having violent sexual encounters with people. The premise is interesting but I felt like some of this was a bit over the top and repetitive.
The story focuses on Ada, a girl supposedly prayed into existence that has two gods sleeping in her soul. Ada uses various measures to keep the gods quiet and subdued (mostly self-harm) and that seems to work, allowing Ada to live a quiet life. That is until college where she is traumatically assaulted by her boyfriend. When this happens the god Asughara takes over Ada’s body to protect Ada from the violence. At this point we hear from Asughara more, as Asughara enjoys having a body and likes throwing Ada into traumatic violent sexual situations. As Asughara starts to tear Ada’s life apart, another god rears its head in the form of Saint Vincent. Saint Vincent is calming and loving but wants Ada to have a more androgynous body. Ada starts to realize these gods are ruining her life more than they are helping and struggles to figure out who she is.
This book has a heavy dose of magical realism to it. You are never quite sure if Ada is actually struggling with gods born into her soul (is it a fantasy book?) or if Ada is struggling with multiple personality disorder and this is how Ada envisions herself. Along the way, Ada stumbles into others who are not all human and have gods hanging around in their souls. Asughara struggles with being in Ada’s body and constantly wants to go home to her godly siblings, but this would involve Ada dying.
Ada’s compulsive and inconsistent actions take a heavy toll on the men she loves and on her family. We get small glimpses into how Ada is slowly tearing apart the people who try to support her through her madness. In the end this seems to be a story about self-identity and figuring out how to fight and accept all parts of yourself to live with this type of mental illness. Although, it could also be the story of a woman trying to survive the gods who have taken residence in her.
This is written in a very poetic and literary way. There is a lot of violence and sex here. The sex is not described in detail but is more viciously abstract with blunt harsh descriptions. At times I struggled to follow what was going on and see the point of it all. While I can say this was unique and had a very intriguing style to it, I can also say it wasn’t something I enjoyed reading. It’s pretty open ended, so I felt like the reader is subjected to a lot for very little closure.
My Summary (3.5/5): Overall this was a unique and visceral read that I respected but didn’t really enjoy. The story is sexually very violent and fairly ambiguous. The reader is left uncertain as to whether or not Ada is struggling with a mental illness or an infestation of gods. I respect the poetic writing style and the intriguing magical realism feel, but the story was too violent, open-ended, and hard to follow for me.
